Photo by Sarah Dixon
Today is the 6 year anniversary of my first date with Travis. To celebrate, we aren’t doing anything out of the ordinary – we’re just going to our sailing class, then going home. However, I’m really looking forward to sailing again this week. Spending time together on a small boat, learning how to tack and jibe and properly trim a sail actually sounds fun today.
Now changing gears…
Having come to a realization last year that very few things I do in my life are decided by me, I have DECIDED to be more decisive. To most people this sounds like a ridiculously obvious notion. Well, sometimes I need to be hit on the head 5 or 6 times before I realize it hurts.
Yes, I was asked to do a sailing class… and I said yes. It was suggested to me that I get my motorcylce license… and I said okay. So yesterday, being the brand new “Decider,” I said “No, I’m not going to get my motorcylce license. That doesn’t fit in with my plans, and I’m not interested. Thank you for the suggestion, but I will decline.”
And it felt good. I might be able to do this more often.
The thing is, I’m still having issues with creativity and a very un-attractive and overwhelming inferiority complex. I feel like I should be doing more life-affirming, important, weighty things with my time. Like volunteering abroad. Or… SOMETHING. I’m not even creative enough to think of things I should be doing with my life.
And so the spiral begins.
Am I in need of a life coach? Or a break? I’m not even that overwhelmed with my current situation. I just end up with more questions and no answers.
I guess I should just ask myself one question at a time, and maybe answers will present themselves.
Here’s hoping.
And here’s to another many years of life and love with Travis. Awwwww.
)